The woman I want to be, part 2

I don’t know what’s going on this week, you guys, but I am in a fantastic mood.

Maybe it’s because I finally got a handle on the bangs situation? Maybe because I’ve kind of been killing at work? Maybe because it’s the season of fun after-work activities and I’m actually taking advantage of the amazing city I live in? Maybe because we’re this close to time off of work?

I really can’t say the reason, but whatever it is, I like it.

The last couple of months, I’ve sort of been in a funk. I think we all go through those times, right? I was adjusting to a new job, a longer commute, and some personal life difficulties. I was feeling out of place and not sure where I wanted to live or what I wanted to do.

But somewhere in the last couple of weeks, things shifted. I’m feeling more confident in what I’m doing, I’ve made a few new friends, and we’re gearing up for an exciting move closer to the city in the spring. Plus, I’ve been picking up a lot more freelance work lately, which has removed a lot of financial stress. (Side note: The company that I thought had forsaken me finally got in touch, and they are sending me checks and more work. And that is why you don’t trash-talk companies online.)

Basically, I’m feeling good.

I’ve been thinking a lot about the topic of resolutions, mostly because the girl who sits next to me at work, Taylor, recently wrote a post for our blog about our editors’ resolutions. I don’t officially make resolutions for New Year’s, but I do like to set goals for myself every month or so. (As the long-time readers of this blog can attest.)

This year, my goal is sort of difficult to describe, but basically, my goal is to be the person I admire.

Like I said, kind of weird to explain. It goes back to two quotes:



The DVF quote I’ve posted before, but the Oscar Wilde one has just really been resonating with me lately. It all goes back to being a key player in your own life, and your own happiness. Which, as anyone who has read my Happiness Project post knows, I firmly believe is crucial to mental well-being.

Basically, I want to stop looking at other people and bloggers and lives and thinking, ugh, how do they do that? Why can’t I do that?

And, instead, just do it. I want to be a smart, put-together, kind person with a cute, organized apartment, a fun, challenging job, great relationships with the important people in my life, and a positive, content outlook on everything. Oh, and if I was always healthy and always wearing cute clothes, that wouldn’t hurt either.

So…I want to be perfect? It kind of sounds like that. But really, I just want to live more deliberately. Does that make more sense?

Maybe it just makes sense in my brain. But honestly, I’m in too good of a mood to really worry about it.

What are your goals for 2013? Hopefully they’re easier to understand than mine…