What am I doing here?

That’s a question I ask myself a lot about this ol’ blog these days.

Are you ready for a mind-boggling fact? I’ve been writing this blog for seven and a half years. I didn’t even realize that until I went to check the starting year so I could tell you how long I’ve been writing it. Isn’t that insane?

To put it in perspective, I’ve been a month for seven months. The longest I’ve ever held a single job was a little over two years. The longest romantic relationship I’ve ever had (hey, babe) has been seven years. The longest I’ve ever lived the same residence was about nine years.

This blog is one of the biggest commitments of my life.

And yet…lately, my life has been really busy. I’m raising a baby and working almost every minute of the day, and at night I mostly just want to collapse and do nothing, but I usually have to catch up on work from the day. I’m tired. And more importantly, my brain is tired. It would be so easy to shut down this little site and call it a day.

And yet…I can never pull the trigger. And when I talk to friends who are just beginning to blog or thinking about starting their own, I feel a spark of excitement as I remember what blogging can be. It makes me want to start a blog all over again.

I started this blog out of a weird sense of obligation as a fledgling journalist. I kept it going as a creative outlet when my career wasn’t particularly creative. In a lot of ways, it is my diary, my record of wins, losses, and all the feelings.

The blog has brought me emotional connections with people all around the world, including a few now real-life friends. While it has never been a source of major income for me, it has brought me business connections and opportunities I wouldn’t have otherwise had.

And, to be honest, I don’t want to stop blogging.

I think the struggle I’m having is that I don’t feel like I’m blogging well these days. I have all these ideas of things I want to do, but I’m not making the time or effort to put them into action. And it’s not that I don’t think I have good excuses why it doesn’t happen — I just wonder if I put a little more effort into time management, if maybe, just maybe, I could do it all.

(Welcome to my brain’s constant chorus: I never think I’m doing enough.)

So here’s what I’m thinking: I want to publish three times a week. And to keep myself accountable, I’m assigning a category for each post. And to keep my passion for the post alive, each of those categories will be one of my favorite things:

Post one will be a recipe or DIY, post two will be a product review or style-related (whether personal or home), and the third post will be a story. Because stories are what started this blog, and stories will always be what it’s about. My plan is to start next week.

I’ll be real with you guys, I’m a little nervous to publish this post. I’m nervous to say I’m going to do something when it will be extremely obvious and open if I fail. I hate failing. And I hate failing publicly.

But, you know what? After seven and a half years, I think I still have a few stories left to tell.

10 thoughts on “What am I doing here?

  1. I don’t know you outside of your blog, but I have been reading your blog for AT least two years. I couldn’t imagine you not writing any more, and or reading how your family is doing and what you are Joey are up to especially with your new bundle of joy! I’m the same age as you, 28, and working on starting a family. You’ve given me a consent reminder that I can do it all. Mom, work, working out, and a fantastic marriage, time with your friends and even a blog. You by no means are failing….. You are an inspiration to me to say the least and if you did quite the blog I would be thoroughly disappointed… I mean really, I need to know every time you get bangs (not in a creepy way, though). So, what all of this jumble is saying is that you rock, and so does your blog!

    • This comment made my week. Thank you so much for saying all those nice things! (By the way, got bangs again, but they’re already growing themselves out. Fortunately, a haircut is already scheduled. AREN’T YOU SO GLAD YOU HAVE THIS KNOWLEDGE? 😉

    • Thank you! (Sorry the original comment wasn’t showing up, I have to manually approve new commenters. Helps cut down on spam 🙂

  2. If you miss a few posts, that is not failing! And I do love your blog, so I’m happy to hear you plan to keep this space going for now 🙂

  3. I look forward to all your future blogs. It connects us all to you! Thanks for your renewed inspiration!❤️

  4. I don’t know you outside of the blog and to be honest I’m unsure how I first stumbled upon your blog! I’ve been reading for several years and your blog is a breath of fresh air. You keep it simple, real and funny. Glad to hear you’re sticking around and making plans 🙂

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